Monday, December 22, 2014


By Silvio

1. Revoltingness- capacity to elicit revulsion 
2. A-lister Gays- gays who can't stomach sex with other gays
3. Simpletonite Gays (formerly Kevlarite Gays- gays who can eat anything as if they have Kevlar stomachs; formerly B-lister Gays, for their low-class taste in sex )
4. Charlatans- read all the post with "Treating" in their title 
5. Charlatanic- pertaining to Charlatans 
6. Therapeutic Homophobia- sexual conversion modality based on the natural revoltingness of homosexuals.

Yuck, time to write again.


We have many "editors" who proofread what we post here after the fact so you must have noticed we often corrected what we've posted (some glaring grammatical errors, at least). The previous post attracted many suggestions again. But the grammatical errors (mixing singular nouns with plural pronouns) were not really critical so we thought, what the heck, just leave it. The post was about revulsion and the writer was just too revolted with the topic he rushed through the writing, not caring about rereading what he wrote just so he could get past through the revulsion.

 So we thought those grammatical errors were actually symbolic of everything we've been harping on here. We didn't bother changing them. It's just English, already passe. For two years now, I actually think in Russian or Italian anyway. My favorite languages (I actually speak with my British friend in French, believe it or not!)


I often receive "advice" notes that I should write more. Mostly, most are urging me so our point of view won't disappear  in the debate. I actually don't find  it crucial that I have to do so more than necessary. Reality is different from what you read from the media-driven dynamics especially if that media has lost its credibility and is not actually penetrating in the main body politic. The usual tactic is to use groups to subvert the conversation, just like a Nazi group used to create a coup d'etat to execute regime change (the Ukraine coup d'etat comes to mind  where the far right fanatics were used to ambush a legitimate protest movement and topple an elected President). That won't work if the Nazi group, while easily manipulated, is too revolting. It won't last. Same with the gay movement. They thought they were able to subvert and control the conversation but you can't create a trend out of revulsion for long. Look at the declining  number of gay marriages, look at the declining patronage of gay porn after the promotion of gay models, etc.

The truth here is that the gay movement is not really the main aim here, it is just an accidental bonus to an ulterior motive.Political tool, in short. Can gay marriage remove the revulsion by most gays to sex with other gays? Can shouting Homophobia force you not to puke when just imagining kissing a swishing queen? The gay movement is just a vehicle for another control mechanism altogether. Fortunately, that supra-control is on its ropes because of the bankruptcy of the backers and other factors beyond the scope of our post. I just mentioned that in passing to make my point.

Look at all the social earthquakes done in the past. Equality, remember? Well, the poor are back with a vengeance.  The early feminists have wrinkles now so look where their new-found power has taken them. When you go to Thailand, for instance, you notice these old Caucasian men with young Asian women  carrying their half-breed  sons. Then you notice these throngs of solo middle-aged women who would try to catch your eyes in a cafe, and if you accidentally lock, you would mistake it was motherly caring but then you realize she was actually seducing you. But then sex was farthest from your mind, you never once had imagined having sex with an aunt, no matter all the MILF brainwash, so you look away. And she would just nurse her wound by reading her pocketbook. They always do, they read a book. ("I use my head, let's think.. so let's debate"). As if you can debate with your dick to get up. Treating older women "with more sensitivity" (the propaganda line) will not make you horny either.

The trouble with women is that men have to have an erection. Women just lie there and they can fake it. A man can't. So the woman loses her leverage when she reaches a certain age. I treat 35 year old women as aunts. I may kiss their forehead as sign of respect but definitely not for lust ( I actually heard that from my "liberated" uncle, I must have his genes).

The truth is, you can't turn shit into anything else even if you can debate and indeed confirm it's just metabolic products and some bacteria which might not even be pathogenic. It is still shit. One can debate all night one should not discriminate shit but sure as the sun rising in the morning, you will still puke in the end. There goes that "Discrimination" bla bla.

So, just like the poor returning eventually with a vengeance now that the West has maxed out on its credit cards,  most gay men will still puke just imagining they have sex with other gay men.


As I wrote before, it's okay if one comes out so we know who is gay and who is not. We would know immediately who to avoid having sex with so the great trouble of deciphering who is and who isn't is eliminated.

But that doesn't mean I would have come out. It's better to just leave that to the imagination. If you socialize with intelligent people, everybody knows their boundaries anyway. Less simple people need their prejudices as defense mechanism and actually, its better to give them that defense. Publicly blackmailing them to lose that defense is oppressing them, a total injustice. I believe in seeking one's own niche, the world is wider than what a pretentious media makes it appear to be, especially a media which nobody reads anyway (the punk who punched a gay man who tried to fondle him probably never even opened a newspaper, much less browsed a website, in his life). Nor are self-righteous NGO's, who are only mercenary political tools, more credible.  We are preaching to the wrong choir. As I wrote before, being gay is like being ugly or even dumb in school. If somebody can admit he's ugly or dumb, why can't a gay man? If somebody is not admitted in a job just because he's dumb and ugly, why not a gay man? Suicide? How many ugly people committed suicide just because their faces turned off the love of their lives?

It doesn't change the fact I'm revolted by the thought of having sex with other gay men.

To me saying publicly you're gay is same as announcing publicly you are revolting. I actually find those muscular sisters who say they are proud of being gay as the most revolting.

But those are outdated arguments:  we now know, that through Therapeutic Homophobia, you don't have to be revolting. One can actually use  revulsion to get rid of the revolting. Homosexuality is a revolting disease & can be cured.


It should just have been part of the maturation process, one should not be given unnecessary favoritism just so the political process could be co-opted for maximum control by charlatanic forces. There was this hope that the next big savior of the failing system is a supposed Creative industry with the gay people as the main protagonists. Well, a gay bar can't even last because - really now- just how many gay men can actually tolerate for long  being in a room full of other gay men?  Well, that creative industry might just end up as a puke factory where one can join to puke. The final collapse of the system, in short.


Hey, it's near Christmas. I would have wanted to start writing exercises on how to intensify our revulsion as part of our Therapeutic Homophobia program but let's do that next time.

Merry Christmas everybody!

Thursday, October 9, 2014


 By Silvio

1. Revoltingness- capacity to elicit revulsion 
2. A-lister Gays- gays who can't stomach sex with other gays
3. Simpletonite Gays (formerly Kevlarite Gays- gays who can eat anything as if they have Kevlar stomachs; formerly B-lister Gays, for their low-class taste in sex )
4. Charlatans- read all the post with "Treating" in their title 
5. Charlatanic- pertaining to Charlatans 
6. Therapeutic Homophobia- sexual conversion modality based on the natural revoltingness of homosexuals.

Nope, we are not yet done with the blog. My apologies for the rather long hiatus. We are still discussing the treatment of Homosexual Disease through the manipulation of the prevalent revulsion to homosexuals even among homosexuals themselves (we call the methodology  "Therapeutic Homophobia"). It's actually simple: just turn the revulsion global. It's really easy to project that revulsion as your default reaction to the male stimulus. Your revulsion to sex with gay men is converted eventually to revulsion to sex with all men. We call this process "Neo-heterosexualization". Homosexual men who can't stomach sex with other gay men (the A-listers) can easily convert. The less finicky gay men (formerly I called them Kevlarites for their incredibly tough Kevlar stomachs, but we now call them Simpletonites for obvious reasons) are not hopeless, they still have functioning gag reflexes despite their vestigial thought processes. They only need a crash course to improve their taste. While it's amazing they have a strong stomach that they appear capable of eating inside a toilet, most most gay men simply can't, having sex with another gay man is worse than eating the toilet itself.

Writing about this topic has not been easy so I needed the 9-month break. I told you I have been and am still fighting my own revulsion just to bring the light. Writing has become torture because I had to dig up really stomach-churning events in the past to buttress my arguments. It's stop and go- I take time off if my stomach complained too much. I thought I needed a long break to recover my breath from prolonged exposure to the stench. I really can't come out with a half-baked piece just to silence my friends who never stopped "haranguing" me to write again. I have to relive the most nauseous periods in my recent life. If that is not plain torture, I don't know what is. If not for compassion, I won't bother.


Everybody now talks about the surreal times, a collapsing Western civilization in slow motion. It's not really a big surprise after all the parade of the ignorant social engineers passing of as  intellectual progressives in recent times. Reckoning time is taking its toll, and gay politics is one of the worst manifestations of the malaise. It was never wise to turn revulsion into a trend, everybody else will be vomiting in no time ( (that's their tactic,  create contrived trends which only them had the stomach to patronize, so all the Muscle Mary's will vomit anyway in the end). Are gays really victims? Or those exposed to gays the real victims? How can one not be a victim when one is practically blackmailed not to puke? Actually, it is worse among A-lister gays themselves. They are blackmailed not to puke to some really revolting creatures just because they also happen to love same-sex sex, just so the ignorant progressive brigade can sell their delusion of gay marriage and other pretentious stuffs which, as if in a karma,  are reinforcing the crumbling malaise all around.

I've presented in previous posts the diminishing number of gay marriages in countries that adopted it after the initial uptick (from the initial enthusiasm of the simpletons who get excited by banal trendsettings). That only means you can't force people to fall in love in a situation more conducive to puking. In fact this business of forcing people to get horny with somebody who revolts them is taking its toll on the "getting horny" process itself. After the noisy  drive to promote gay models in gay porn,  from what I've  heard, gay porn subscription now goes  down to as low as $1  monthly (three years ago when I was still not neo-heterosexual, I paid about $30 minimum). Well, who wants to get off from revolting stimuli in the first place?

 I don't speak gay and sex in the same breath. They are mutually exclusive. I don't call paid sex with real straight man gay, I call it all-male sex. To me, gay sex is when you do it with gay men, and gay sex has always
been a complete no-no because the mere thought of having sex with another gay man always revolted me. True, I really puked many times. My friend Greg got hospitalized for severe vomiting when he mistakenly swallowed what he would later discover to be a muscular closet queen.  Calling it gay sex will turn it into a revolting exercise. Just a matter of semantics? Semantics is all. I am proud of the homophobic vocabulary of my desire. In my previous sex life, I was interested in all-male sex but no gay decor, sound or man, not even a hint, please!

I think it's wiser to ensure that straight men would be delicious. That means less gay, the better. One should have the humility to accept gay men are damaged goods in the Delicious Sex Department, and they should not spoil the whole display. I don't think you're oppressing anybody if you found them repulsive. I found the pretentious allegations that gay men are victims as phony, most people would rather avoid a revolting situation with a revolting person than waste time dealing with them. Politically blackmailing them to put up with their revulsion will oppress everybody in the end.

Being gay is no different from being ugly. Somebody just don't find you sexy. If ugly people, the majority  in the world, can live to old age without organizing to politically blackmail everybody about the injustice of not being beautiful, why should gays have the gall to force everybody to put up with their revulsion?

I believe in freedom. Politics shouldn't shackle you with the delusions of  the  pretentious just because they had the chutzpah to organize (they are just used by shadow powerbrokers for their power plays, as we have seen). Diversity means everybody can seek his own crowd but don't pretend everybody should be forced to swallow his revulsion. The world is wide enough for anybody to seek one's own niche of comfort so what for are these political movements to politically blackmail everybody to act as if they were made with the same level of sensivity? Gay men have always revolted other men (that includes most other gays) and everybody should be free not to swallow that revulsion. I don't even socialize with most gay men, much less have sex with them, why should I be politically forced to treat them as if I'm not revolted when I've vomited many times? The West is bankrupt and crumbling- has anybody ever thought that coincided with the flourishing of the gay movement in the West? Could it be most of the economists who have been forced to be "trendy" and put up were so disoriented with all the putting up that they vomited through their wrong conclusions & decisions? Very likely.

(Btw, as to the question, one should not be refused work due to his sexual orientation, I don't agree with that. A revolting presence will destroy the dynamics in the workplace. The slow-motion collapse of Western civilization is one of the unrecognized results of a revolting contamination of the Western workplace).

But I have to take a break now. My stomach is churning... I'll just tuck in the continuation here later. I told you this topic is not pleasant to the stomach.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Thanks for the Yuck, I needed that!

by Silvio Merkel

1. Revoltingness- capacity to elicit revulsion 
2. A-lister Gays- gays who can't stomach sex with other gays
3. Kevlarite Gays- gays who can eat anything as if they have Kevlar stomachs 
4. Charlatans- read all the post with "Treating" in their title 
5. Charlatanic- pertaining to Charlatans 
6. Therapeutic Homophobia- sexual conversion modality based on the natural revoltingness of homosexuals. 


I already consider the gay agenda as a dead issue, Homosexual Disease was already proven as curable. It is perfectly alright to slur a disease.

This is in support to Michael Johnson, the recently resigned British Football Association Inclusion Board member. He was recently pilloried by the charlatans for his comment that Homosexuality is detestable because of his beliefs. It’s always right to slur a disease. We condemn those who use fascistic politics to meddle with one's beliefs. Most gays support freedom (not only Sexuality, Belief, but most importantly, from disease) and Mr. Johnson has a right to detest anything that is against his belief, and we condemn those who criticized him, particularly these charlatans who claim they are fighting for gays while they are pushing them to be gay forever so they have dorks to use for their dark agenda. Most gays don't enjoy watching gay players in soccer anyway, they have no place in delicious sports (the tasteless ones have their Gay Games). Let's keep sports delicious! Spectator Sports are only for delicious straight guys!
(to the athletes who recently let themselves be used by the charlatans and pretended to "come out" though most gays know they are sisters, shame on you- do you know how many are puking now? Imagine, the innocent ones realizing they wasted time imagining sexy things about another sister? You realize how revolting that was? Yuck!)

You don't see here any picture of the diver who recently came out. The British sent almost half of the beefcake here and many sent his pictures but the first time I saw one, I knew right away he was gay so his name is not here (Remember the skier who "allegedly came out" before who was a big queen and you couldn't mistake him for anything else? Same vibes). Photos of a soccer player were sent by somebody from Germany a few years ago but my British friend Ewan told me he knew that was gay. Ewan had anecdotes to tell, so the German too isn't found on the index at our sidebar where most of the German mannschaft can be found. It's good I didn't see him play, or I'd be revolted with the memory. I can only guess how many are gagging with theirs now.

It seems the script now is for those "coming out" to say that their homosexual feelings were just recently discovered (obviously designed to be a blatant promotion as if being gay has ever been something worthwhile to aspire for, especially now when we have confirmed it is a disease. You see here the benefits of the Russian Anti-Gay Propaganda legislation, I find it is really wise, and that reflects its rise because after only two decades of Capitalism, it is now the richest country in Europe (GDP-PPP of $3.4 trillion, 2013). America should emulate it. Gays have conscience too, we know how luckless it is to be gay and it would be cruel to wish it on other people, best if you can avoid it (now you can with Therapeutic Homophobia).

When that basketball player "came out", some guy at ESPN was quoted by the charlatanic press as having allegedly "condemned" it because of his Religion. Now, the latest showboy was lambasted again, quoting Religion as usual, by a player from France this time, a country which was recently co-opted by the charlatans (for now, but I expect France, the next Euro basket case, will be among the first to revert against gay marriage, just like Spain is reverting now on the abortion issue). That contrived insertion of Religion into the drama is the sign that charlatans are at work here.

Two actors, who I didn't even know but got to know only when they outed, suddenly became producers, one of stars far bigger than them both, so coming out must really mean a lot to the pocket (these are only stars in the charlatanic space because only a few simpletons  are actually watching their shows; I'll explain below). My British friend Ewan said the coming-out show must really compensate well  because only a moron would intentionally subject himself to public ridicule just like in those cheap reality TV shows (writing this, I can still hear the laughter when educated liberal friends talked about the German; with soccer-loving A-lister gays, I'm sure it's extreme revulsion). A minor or a retired athlete surely are at the end of their earning capacity and they are cheaper for the show organizers. They won't shell out big bucks for A-list stars, many of which are closet gay themselves and some of whom are even their campaigners? ("Oh, I support gays though I... uh... am gay myself  actually but I can't possibly come out because that is dumb, you know that, don't you? Coming out is only for the cheap, see?"). Or they just don't want to destroy the investment of their friends because they could do it cheaper on the retirees? (Lesson: bring out more money for a heartier entertainment. Bigger laughs,  most especially from bitter gays who will always be lifted by other "co-victims" joining them in their misery).

With the charlatans, it's all contrived reality shows just so they can hoodwink gays for their darker schemes. Remember gay disease marriage, it was supposed to be a clamor when it turned out only a few simpletons could stomach it.  Some even tried to outlaw gay treatment with the most ridiculous pretenses ("Oh, I would be depressed, I will commit suicide!" To them, Cancer patients should not be treated, they might get depressed and commit suicide). They don't need gays to heal. Gays have a crucial role, they are necessary pawns in their darkest schemes. More below.


Sorry for not writing earlier. As we go deeper into our discussion on the revulsion-based treatment of Homosexual Disease (Therapeutic Homophobia), writing the series has really become "forbidding" at times. I tried to write before Christmas but the triggered revulsion lasted for days and I didn't want to destroy the holiday mood. I won't want to destroy the start of the year either but my friends have been "haranguing" me to write (lol). This is just a short piece, I'll mention a few essentials and reply to a few  questions, but I'll refrain from delving into the revolting stuff (the treatment proper). I will just reframe for now into their proper context what we have been writing so far. We'll continue the Therapy series in the next post (Too early in the year to torture myself, lol).

But really, I'm doing this series for compassion. Sounds corny but it's really a sacrifice fighting my revulsion & all just to bring the light. My sexual conversion just confirmed other anecdotal testimonies of conversion which the charlatanic media chose to ignore because it would destroy their devious game plan. They preferred gays to be ignorant suckers to the contrived mantras of their mercenaries (believe it or not, these fake mantras are the stuff that run the contrived culture wars, another fake one). Well, no need for much counterarguments, they have lost much credibility anyway and the world has really changed. In the US, all the charlatan media are flirting with bankruptcy though they don't have competition, not because of the internet but because nobody respected them enough to continue buying them. Same with the broadcast media: the number 1 shows have 5-6 million viewers and in a country of 330,000,000, that's ridiculous, the whole country has practically tuned off! What we have are smoke & mirrors, reality is missing from the equation. Just like the economy where money printing created the illusions something is moving though the real economy is clueless. The growth is in the graphs but even credible experts are looking for it.

Just like the illusions of gay disease marriage. Who is stupid enough to construct marriage out of a disease when you can just treat the disease? Create smokes of "equality, modernity, bla bla" so that people won't notice they are diseased or that they are stupid? Something hidden behind the smokes and mirrors?

Mostly, I'm saddened at seeing people who repressed their sexuality for too long only to end up repressing their revulsion. My famous British friend Ewan says the majority are either poor, ugly (or plain-looking) or simpletons, the bulwark of democracy, but he's really amazed  how these simple folks could even fantasize they'd achieve some sort of "equality, modernity, etc." if they would only follow "progressive" charlatanic prescriptions like swallowing their vomit, which is what the gays are required to do. And swallow the more simpleton gays did believing that doing so meant they were actually falling in love. Thankfully, only few were that low in the totem pole of simpletons. Yuck, it's yucky times, folks!


A New Year, I'll be on my third year of being a neo-heterosexual soon so let me say Thanks for the Yuck.  Revulsion really works. Somebody asked, so what is the real cure for gays? I thought you should have realized by now. Oh, the real cure are gays themselves. The Charlatans have used the more simple-minded among gays (among other suckers pretending to be "progressives") for their scams in the guise of "liberalism, modernity, equality, bla bla" but they missed the very obvious facts:
1) gays themselves are mostly revolted to each other (that's why, as we have confirmed with the few simpletons everywhere who were "conned" into it, the charlatanic gay disease marriage turned out to be very unpopular  (certified pseudo-clamor) because so few gays really can stomach marrying each other, they are found mostly in the  charlatanic press),
 2) if homosexuals are revolted, what more are heterosexuals so why should you politically blackmail anybody already victimized by their natural revulsion to a revolting stimulus, you want even to legislate against basic human reactions?
 3) since it is so uncomfortable, there's no way it can be normal, nature must have provided a trapdoor, and it turned out, it actually did: Homosexuality  turned out be curable after all (which we have confirmed  personally is actually a fact, so you can just marvel at the ignorance of these supposed developed European countries which created laws that created marriage out of a disease! How developed should you be to be categorized as stupid? They swallowed pretentious charlatanically-prepared "democratic" dogmas fit for suckers just to pretend they were not stupid. Wonder why they are all declining now?). The Peter Principle, reaching the limits of ignorance and arrogance: with the charlatans, gays will be gays forever. But if gays ignored the quacks and used instead their natural gag reflex, they will become neo-heterosexuals. The gay agenda is fake because in the near future when common sense will finally prevail,  Homosexual Disease will just be another reportable disease.

The charlatanic "experts" were only borrowing credibility from the material prosperity around for a particularly lucky period, so when these economic "experts" fell flat on their faces like right now, what guarantee that all the other experts aren't quacks? With our discovery of Therapeutic Homophobia, the point men for the gay agenda were indeed confirmed as quacks. The fake gay agenda is just the punchline to the joke because the act is obviously on its last ropes. It's just following a historical constant- when gay prominence occurs at a particular juncture in history (Biblical, Greek, Roman, etc) , that is the indicator that that particular phase is ending.

Not different with this one.  You can judge how low it has sunk by its gall to equate its basic institutions with disease (you can also see here how weak Western democracy is to any schemer's machinations, the bogus arguments led to the invention of disease-based marriage after all, in supposedly advanced countries at that). They didn't bother looking for the cure because they needed the gays and other "victims"  for their scheme (we have discussed the major schemes in previous posts) .  According to charlatans, that  means freedom. Yes, freedom to become a has-been and irrelevant.


My sexual conversion has been an eye opener, a real gamechanger: I didn't only get a normal heterosexual new me, but as it turned out, I saw the world for what it really was, a world at the mercy of outdated charlatans who manipulate the world for their own dark ends in the guise of "liberalism, progress, modernity" and other pretensions. Surely, it has other objectives because the script feels too contrived, it is bogus. In my early life, I innocently identified as liberal, but I soon learned that was fake as well. There are true liberals & conservatives but they are mostly well-meaning simple people, the sheeps of democracy, but only a few realized the major movements at both sides  are just funded by the same group of charlatan shepherds (we'll take a history lesson in future posts), maintained by a network of charlatanic media which if you are like me who speaks all the major European languages, you'll realize there is actually a chorus across national boundaries singing the same songs & lyrics despite the much-ballyhoed  freedom of the press- and no, its not limited by political ideology as they would like you to believe, it's the same bananas, Left or Right. I was once learning Polish (after learning Japanese early last year, I started learning all the Eastern European languages at the same time) and imagine my surprise when the front page was a pedophile priest in the Dominican Republic. What's that got to do to merit the headline in Poland, you say? We are familiar now with the script.

Having seen how gays were toyed around with fake "progressivism", I already find tedious all these pretensions from the usual suspects. Marx had a very incisive analysis & description of what's wrong with society, but knowing what happens & knowing what to do are two different things. The track record is not encouraging. The Communist experiment in Eastern Europe is a glaring example: they killed tens of millions for nothing, they just developed a productive source of prostitutes & menial manual  laborers for the near-bankrupts of today. The mother of all the social justice pretensions, poverty, is increasing instead everywhere with little prospects of  the previous debt-inflated standard of living ever returning (I doubt if the so-called increase in women working is due to feminism- more likely, it was due to poverty, the wives were forced to seek a second income- and is that even progress?). Feminism, like the gay agenda, were supposed to be the forward forces for the Anti-Patriarchy front, until we blew the whistle the gay problem has nothing to do with Patriarchy or Religion,  the root was more basic- it was due to revulsion. Religion & Patriarchy were mere reactions to the basic problem, not the root. A religious lady, being the gentle soul that she was, can't tell a queen she's revolted at his face, it would be easier to use her religion. Take away her defense & she may die puking at the toilet. Cause of Death: Cardio-Respiratory Arrest Secondary to Severe Dehydration and Electrolyte imbalance due to Severe Revulsion-induced Vomiting.
(The part of the gay agenda in the charlatanic script  is to weaken the delicious masculine standards, allegedly to pull them down to the level of the defeminizing feminists, & you just imagine how unpalatable a world that would be- sexual equivalent of wearing the same limp hospital uniform. Not that it will ever come true, it will be a failure like the other schemes, but just goes to show how the pretentious minds of the charlatan work)

Do they even have figures showing how many are suffering with the revulsion they have unleashed? (Just like they were crowing about how strong was the clamor for Gay Disease Marriage, until we pointed out that, all along, even after a decade, only a few simpletons could stomach it everywhere, and the clamor was actually only found in the charlatanic circles. We'll discuss the actual figures in the next post). As you must have read from my previous posts, I suffered a lot even before I developed bisexual reactions (after which, I took the 4- month therapy which turned me into neo-heterosexual). A year and a half of revolting torture first before I realized I could actually escape. One and a half years of revulsion! True, that eventually so tortured me, my body tried its best to escape homosexuality itself. But I didn't have to suffer, I learned belatedly you could have done that in the clinic anyway if I was just properly informed and not waylaid & used by charlatanic propaganda (now you know why I hate charlatans).

And if I had allowed myself to be blackmailed then, I would be allowing now many to remain prisoners of the same revulsion forever.

The word is prisoners. We are prisoners of these eternal killjoys who have proven themselves grand failures in tinkering with all our lives but they are not about to stop yet- they have to mess around some more because their first pretension on Equality dramatics resulted in the skyrocketing of the 1% while the poor got poorer.Who told them to straitjacket us with pretentious political correctness when they have been toying us from the get-go? Freedom of expression is nice, freedom of sexuality is nicer, but do we really need these clowns to tell us and aggravate our lives? Gays and women have better lives in areas without the mantras of these clowns. We need freedom alright, but freedom from the charlatans. We dont need anybody to pick and choose how we should live our lives- we are capable. Normal, heterosexual, gays, homophobic, Muslim, Christian, Anti-Semitic, racist, Muslim have the same rights.There are no special people, especially when everybody is just waiting for the giant charlatanic bubble of delusion (which got so large because many have gone accustomed deluding themselves,like today) to burst.

How to recognize another A-lister guy?

Lol. Many ways, but usually because of "toilet moments"- that is, when you see an attractive guy, who you thought was straight, only to discover that he's looking right back at you seductively- he's a sister! You'd feel so disgusted then you would want to run to puke to the toilet (wasting time to be attracted to someone only to discover he's lacking drains away much energy). One time, my British friend Ewan told me when he first saw me he got attracted, but when our eyes met, he said he saw the signs so he had his toilet moment. All it took was one second because when an A-lister sees another good-looking man, there will be that split-second he'll admire the vision before his brain could try to crunch the credentials of what he's seeing. If he's a genuine A-lister, he'll soon be immediately disgusted but the split-second was enough to give him away. Ewan is a cross of Roger Moore-Sean Connery so I showed that split-second. But before he could be consumed by the familiar disgust, I told him:"Don't worry I'm sexually allergic to gays too so we could just be friends ". I saw before that he was popular inside that pretentious place and I wanted to have a British acquaintance who matters, and sharing a secret is always a nice way to start a bond (He's not a Scot, Ewan is just a name I gave him here because he told me he had a bigger dick than Ewan McGregor). The unspoken rule: we're both disgusted by the thought of having sex with each other. And since almost all of my A-lister clique started with toilet moments, you can be sure the group is very goodlooking. Needless to say, closet all before, but now, all neo-heterosexuals.

What about the novel?

My novel is a victim of revulsion. I had characters who were supposed to dramatize sexual conversion but they now disgust me. I think I have to remove all the homosexual characters first but I don't have the time right now.

Thoughts on coming out...

This is a moot question because I think there's no need to do it anymore, the disease can be treated.

But before, I actually thought it would have been better for an A-lister gay that gays should come out to lessen the work in deciphering who is fake and who is not. It's really disgusting to desire one only to find out he's gay (Yuck, a toilet moment). But that didn't mean I would have come out (None of my friends came out & good because they have benefitted from Therapeutic Homophobia eventually). Not because one is afraid or all that charlatanic drama. True, it's really embarrassing, but that's not even the reason, because you may be embarrassed of your face but you go out anyway. But: being gay is ONLY enjoyable when a really good-looking STRAIGHT guy agrees to your price, but otherwise, I really don't relish being in a gay community where most of its members you would rather stay away from. Coming out means seeing yourself as a member of a very uncomfortable crowd, and most closet gays realize that fact. You don't hate gays- nobody hates gays, but gays are so uncomfortable most, including gays themselves, actually just don't think about gays- people generally don't want to destroy their day, much less their appetite- but some gays are so drama queens they insist in having a stage, that's why they are mauled. They are mauled in the same way that an unruly drunkard is mauled, not because of sexuality, but because he uses his sexuality to make an ass of himself and everybody else. I actually think anyone should be free to express what he feels- why suffer your revulsion to allow an uncomfortable presence pirouette to his heart's content before you? The only gays I knew who committed suicide were A-listers- they were depressed that the only men who could love them were gays themselves. You really won't expect Kevlarite gays to commit suicide. No, the Kevlarites are tough, all these sensitivity dramas are as fake as their sexual tastes. If they can stomach having sex with each other, they can stomach anything.

 This drama of coming out is supposedly to start debate because nobody knew? Lol, what school or office doesn't have gossips about the sexuality of  one supposedly dubious macho or married man? What man hasn't entered a public urinal without a couple of macho characters ogling at him at the urinal? That presumption of nobody knew was just the drama so they can bring out these pretentious pseudo-arguments, novels, films & programs allegedly "to make people think" and present themselves as capable of thinking. Lol, people are aware normal-looking people can be gay, and I don't see the point why obviously gay athletes should let people who are probably already fighting with their gag reflex be overwhelmed and puke? People can deal with their discomfort if they laugh so gays can be comedians, but you want to spread discomfort when people want to enjoy full-testosterone? These sisters have no respect to other people's rights. Revulsion is not a conscious effort- no use for debate- it's your body saying nobody has a right to aggravate you. I actually condemn these sports drama queens because they are degrading what is delicious. People don't want to see a movie with an ugly star, and I myself don't want to watch a game shouting my heart out with a gay athlete sullying a full-testosterone scene in the soccer field. That's why nobody watches the Gay Games because people have no obligation to suffer just so uncomfortable people can live in their delusion. Pirouette if you want but leave people alone.

But these are outdated arguments. Not that I believe these pretensions would have a major dent anyway, just like in the other charlatanic dramas which just coat the surface, noticed mainly by charlatanic media & their clique (After we have exposed that clamor for Gay Marriage is just a creation of the charlatans, we have other exposures soon). Let the delicious straight men be delicious. Better, be straight yourself. With Therapeutic Homophobia, now, you can.

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From our German friend Heinrich: if you see an attractive man, imagine that his cum is that of a gay man. The shudder of revulsion will be instantaneous. In time, the attraction will be replaced by revulsion. More on this next time.