Thursday, November 24, 2011

RIGHT TO PROTECTION FROM NAUSEA: The Politics of Strong Stomachs


Ben Foden & Una Healy


by Dick of All Dicks & Poli Tico

I said it's all a delusion. It really puzzles me how supposed-to-be serious intelligent men kept a straight face during the drama. The FAIR Education Act of California was supposed to change the world view of the young kids, make them aware of the achievements of past homosexuals (who didn't publicly identify as homosexuals btw, just from accounts of some ancient authors & activists who were most likely gays themselves), so that, as the wishful thinking goes, all gays will be seen in a new light & pronto all prejudice will be gone forever. Ah, and Hollywood will try to help along their fellow gays- let the world know Alexander is bisexual so the world will learn not only heterosexuals are strong. But what's this? The film ALEXANDER bombed! Ah, the gay wishful thinkers resolved, let's try again, let's hint Captain America is gay so gays could be superheroes & voila- oh, but what's this again? The film didn't recoup its big budget despite the gargantuan advertisement outlay & Brandon Routh, on the verge of superstardom, disappeared as a result into the gloom. But hey, there are still many superheroes who certainly could turn gay any minute now... wishful thinking forever...

Really now! Did you hear what happened in a California classroom when a lispy Muscle Mary sashayed in? Ah, little Greg was curious, was Alexander the Great a Muscle Mary too? Little Greg, as expected in a child with an overly active mind, tried to check if lispy Muscle Mary was capable of building an empire like the Great Macedonian. But what's this, why did Muscle Mary cry when he taunted him to show his war-like prowess? Then, horrors, why did all these old Muscle Mary's descend on the campus to harass imaginative Little Greg? Alas, Little Greg grew up to be a good-looking dude. Yes, William Shakespeare might have been gay but what did it matter when the muscular high-school jock, William Grant, was always eyeing his dick in the shower, that really made Little Greg want to puke. Michaelangelo might have been gay but William Grant made a pass at adolescent Little Greg so the latter punched him though Leonardo da Vinci might have been gay too. Abraham Lincoln might have been gay but the delicate headmaster was caught peeping at a boy student in a toilet stall. Yes, Captain America might have been gay & Teacher Lily just looked on at what was happening in her school with a deadpan, but she feared she couldn't contain her laughter anymore. Clint Eastwood might be gay but it's no wonder California is nearing bankruptcy, the low quality of imagination & expectations going around really boggles the mind. Really, I just hope the feeble minds of wishful thinking won't infect the national scene or the US is really history.

Really now, how can you even expect it's possible to manipulate history to elevate a "looked-down" group whose clear & present (& perpetual) reality is just reinforcing the usual prejudice? Alexander may be bi, Hoover may be gay or Greta Garbo may be a lesbian but will an atrociously funny view before your eyes ever stop being a comedy? Ban comedy just to be politically correct? Or will history be degraded into a hilarious tragedy instead?

Woe to the supposed-to-be serious intelligent people. It surprises you how many among those who like to pretend to be of a "higher level" turned out to be mere suckers after all. In the end, plain affectations mostly to distract themselves from accepting their own mediocrity. Once, they dreamed there would be economic equality, they even killed millions for it- there'll be no rich or poor, ha!-, but not only is poverty as ubiquitous as ever, but is in danger now of engulfing everybody else. Ah, never mind the poor, how about sexuality. If we could no longer pretend as modern economically, we can always pretend we are "modern" sexually- that won't be too hard, is it? So they now have the gall to expect everybody should swallow their vomits because it's of being on a "higher level" to do so. It's politically correct to swallow your vomits, folks! But what do you really expect would happen? Not everybody could pretend like they do after all. They may have strong stomachs, but unfortunately, most people don't. I certainly don't, I have a low vomit level so excuse me...

It's easy to whistle in the dark & pretend the wishful thinking goes on as it has always been, but the story cracked sometime in the 1980's yet, when most developed economies started deficit spending to lull their citizens with the feeling of prosperity & fed them illusions about unlimited rights which would undo them eventually. The debts only accumulated & eventually settled accounts with reality, while the political demands went beyond practical & incrementally compromised the capacity of the system to respond adequately. The usual grandstanders come forth with their usual "wise" analysis pointing to this, pointing to that, but you wonder if they were any bigger than mere paycheck pushers or just blind archers in the air trying to impress certain delusional cliques while the more sensible majority finally got bored & just tuned out. I have a feeling events on the ground have long ago left behind the self-styled experts who were innocently trapped juggling outdated theories in their ideological cages. Impractical theories which caught up with reality but unfortunately only after they have undermined already the developed world in the last half century. The other side of the world is still skyrocketing to economic surplus despite the world malaise while the deadbeats in France are still debating if Socialist spittle might be better off than the conservative piss of Sarkozy. Even in America, some nitwits still bother chanting Down with Capitalism as if the Left-Right dichotomy could still provide answers after the havoc produced by the ideological wars in the last half century. Has it occurred to anybody it may not even matter? The truth is the world has already turned a new page but Western politics was caught self-importantly napping, so the conversation got stuck in wishful whistling in the darkness of outdated ideological nonsense.

Does it matter really if some believed in Creation when you feel like puking just thinking you have to have sex with a Muscle Mary? Does it matter really if you're a conservative Wasp or a liberal Jew when the ground is imploding beneath both of your feet? Does it matter really if some believed in their God when you feel like running to puke in the toilet when you see a muscular sissy gyrating naked on a stage instead of a delicious straight boy?

Simply, some don't have the right to make you puke when all you wanted was a good view or just to have a good time. Even Civilization thinks so. Throughout history it balked, so whenever malignant gays got too visible, there was civilization change just so they return to their burrows again. Visible malignant gays have been the constant markers of civilization change throughout history. Just like in Sodom. Just like in Thebes. Just like in Sparta. (Just like in London? My British friend Ewan claims the British Empire imploded with its many homosexual aristocrats, LOL), Just like in Rome, etc.

If the delusion continues... Just like now...






Tuesday, November 15, 2011

THE EROTIC EDUCATION OF SOME BRITISH ACTORS



I went to Paris a couple of weeks ago, then to London, where I met my British friends Ewan & his business partners (all straight boy lovers but all self-identify as heteros) in a private club where out of the blue, our conversation veered from ancient Greeks towards British actors. Suddenly Oliver said nobody seems to be real man enough to interest him anymore. Richard joked most actors in Britain have always been closets so he'd rather watch art movies from Iran where the Ayatollahs would at least make sure all the men were genuine (Lol). Richard has always been bitchy. But you see, we don't listen to gay singers, we don't watch gay leading men in films. We love to say we are all not into fake Rolex nor fake Louis Vuitton, we certainly won't spend two hours watching a not genuine leading man pretending to be straight on the screen. Ignorance would've been bliss, but the problem is it's a small art world in London, they always know someone who swears he knows certain escapades. But it would be unfair to categorize all British actors as gay. They challenged me to write my take on them for a change. I'm up for the challenge (Don't you notice my Brit friends have too much influence on this blog?). Not athletes but actors today.


by Dick of All Dicks & Poli Tico


The hope is they could recreate the relative success of the upper class predilections of the ancient Greeks. By they, I mean some prominent homosexuals who have been sidelined by the dominant masculine heterosexual culture. I say upper class Greeks because the practice only thrived in sectors where prominent pederasts could insinuate themselves into a position of influence, where, by virtue of education or wealth, they could execute their ever sneaky modus operandi of imparting knowledge to the youth in exchange for sex (supposed to be part & parcel of the passion of transmittng knowledge). The receiver or the eromenos in a pederast relationship were actually ridiculed by the common people. Even long before Christianity came, the pederast culture had to fight for its existence. In Plutarch's works, he produced a nice dielectical discussion of the advantages of conjugal love over pederast love & he pointedly put to task the predilection of the pederasts to stay long hours among the naked youths in the gymnasia with the pretext of educating them. It's obvious who instigated the custom that Greek youths had to always be naked when inside the gymnasia. It is a reflection of the current flood of homoerotic images as gays in the modern times try to replicate the tricks of the ancient Greek gays in other myriad ways (See? Who said it's modern?). There was relative success then because most of the ancient Greeks were simple, uneducated & busy with mundane survival, especially if they didn't have the looks, leisure time nor money to be coopted into the pederastic orbit. That sealed the fate of the ancient gays: the common people went on relying on their natural heterosexual desires which perpetuated the heterosexual worldview down to the centuries. The pederasts even then were overwhelmingly outnumbered & they could only corrupt the children of the upper classes (& the goodlooking among the poor) who had the misfortune to be entrusted to them for education. The problem of the pederasts was they lost influence whenever the ruling classses were overthrown by another. Once in Thebes, they managed to form an army all full of lovers (called the Sacred Band) but they were all annihilated after only 40 years, a joke in those times when empires lasted centuries. They have to start corrupting new ones each time, time & again.

Like now. Of course, the modus operandi now includes the magic words "rights" & "equality". The problem is that people aren't mostly peasants now, there's high-technology that could unravel quickly the ruses &, worse, the political & economic landscape is disintegrating that they are more likely to be forced to be on the run again.

You say even the Greek gods were gay? You could almost be sure those salvaged data were the works of ancient gays. It's like a thousand years from now & it happens that the salvaged gay porn might give the impression all-male sex is the prevailing culture today if all the other data were lost. There were just a few hundred documents & few vases saved from ancient Greece. But the surviving ancient gay data were enough to give future homosexuals the blueprints to implement in their new footholds. They naturally gravitated toward the arts & education which they used to entice the upper classes of Europe, just like in ancient Greece. They met a new complication though with the spread of Christianity which forcibly separated passion & sex from learning, disrupting the integrity of a desired erotic Greek education.

But even that drawback eventually became a breakthrough. In Britain, from Oscar Wilde to playwright Tom Stoppard, the tandem of learning and passion has been a persistent theme. The mode of entry of the ancient Greek pederast script into Britain was to try to reinsert into the debate the renaissance of passion in unity with learning. British academia preferred to emphasize the more Enlightenment-based primacy of knowledge over the drive-based pretensions. The poets, playwrights and philosophers (which were called "great" for whatever propaganda value) of ancient Greece were frequently invoked for their celebration of intellect hand in hand with love and passion, and of course, not to forget sex. Then & now, art & education have been convenient foraging grounds. This was more clearly shown when a play entitled HISTORY BOYS was staged some years back. It was about a teacher who fondled his students because, as he said it, "the transmission of knowedge is an erotic act by itself ". Greek erotic education was alive again & it has reared its head in Britain.

The following interview with the two actors who played the protagonists of HISTORY BOYS were instructive on the self-rationalization done by some British on the issue (not as widespread as some would like to make it believed because only 1% of the population actually are potential instigators). Notice they used the word "mature","being on a higher level", "that they have more something to gain" by being fondled by a teacher who is receiving a salary to educate them. DC is Dominic Cooper & SB is Samuel Barnett, both British actors.

DC: It's one of those things that started to happen. It's ridiculous. The boys have something much more bigger to gain. The point of their lives is very, very important. It's one of those I think they deal with it in a very mature way because they're a mature bunch of guys.
SB: They're not damaged by it. They're not screwed up by it. It's inappropriate and completely wrong. It's not illegal. They're all over 16. It's inappropriate because it's teacher-student. It's not pedophilia because they're all over 13. It's abusive and it's wrong but they kind of see it as a rite of passage. .. It's wrong, but that's what it is. And you know we talked about it extensively in rehearsals and we came to the conclusion that these boys are kind of on a higher level as it were and they see it as a right of passage rather than something that will screw them up.
DC: And it happens.
SB: It does happen.
DC: That happened to so many people certainly with people who were at school at that time and they all say the same thing, Yeah, yeah, Mr. so-and-so, he used to get us âround his house and just have his hand on our knee all the time. Yeah, he did. And they realized but they dealt with it. In terms of writing, I think it's genius because you kind of fall in love with this guy and he's wonderful...
SB: Actually, you still end up loving him.
DC: You still end up loving him and, as he says in the film, what does he say? Education is in itself an erotic act.
SB: The passing on of it. Yeah.
Q: It sure makes it very clear that the boys deal with it.
DC: They deal with it very well. It doesn't affect them. You don't see any of them trembling in the corner worried about how to deal with it or what it means to them. They don't care about it.
...
DC: He (the teacher) does breach trust but it's the way the boys react to it that's important
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Meaning, I repeat, the boy would be mature, at a "high level" & he's got more to gain if he lets himself be fondled on his way to his goal & he'll still love the fondler. Very sweet. The ancient Greek erotic education at work again in Britain & it's obvious it has indoctrinated well the two actors above. I wonder if part of the decline of the former British Empire could be attributed to this masochistic shortchanging of one's self-worth which is conveniently rationalized as a higher level of being. What I am certain, from that kind of self-rationalization, one can extract the seed for the persistence of homosexuality among British actors even today. A milieu where homosexual artists bent on copying the methods of ancient Greeks would certainly welcome such "high level" attitudes of the willing boys who will pass through "mature" rites of passage on their way to stardom. It's understandable fondling would be too tame for what would then be conveniently passed of as "experimentations" done to establish credentials. Wasn't buggery called an English disease?

A true heterosexual actor may have a lesser chance to break through in such a system. If you still need to experiment, then you're not really heterosexual (I know it's hard to lose the label, but if they still have to experiment, it only means they themselves weren't convinced, there was no fulfillment, so they just had to have orgasm with another boy). As I've written before in our private study on the guys we had sex with, a true heterosexual guy felt "indignity" even if you paid him $5000 just for simple oral sex lasting ten minutes & tend to delete it as soon as possible from his consciousness. Those who loved it will "metamorphose" & were seen active in all-male sex later on on their own, all the while proclaiming themselves "heterosexual" & displaying girlfriends (some have the gall to be cocky with their self-denial when cornered: "It's only sex!" As if everybody was born yesterday. Labels are important to the unwitting prospective victim. And to those with refined taste). You can determine those who metamorphosed not only by their actions but by their mindset, & therefore, their words. The two actors above weren't goodlooking enough for the taste of the group so nobody bothered to confirm their sexual preferences & histories. But with such mindsets to guide them by, we have a clue. A simple check on the works of British actors could provide snapshots of their passage. With such accepting opinions about rites of passage, an actor could go full naked onstage just after drama school in a play of mostly homosexual theme, cast & crew. Not an issue in itself in the Theater where the word "artistic" could acquire the "high level" pretensions of an ancient Greek education.

The real problems arise when they aim bigger & they have to start marketing themselves to gain acceptance, this time not from small time educators & artists who just wanted to score free despite the elaborate high-fallutin' pretensions, but to an intelligent & of more refined taste audience whose patronage could turn them into millionaires. Would simply self-identifying as heterosexual be enough to hoodwink everyone just like in the low-tech times of John Gielgud & Lawrence Olivier? In a modern culture that demands authenticity from all the labels that is sold in the grocery, are fantasies exempted? If you love straights, would you be thrilled to fantasize on gays? In Argentina, a TV program outed wealthy actor Ricardo Fort who was paying actresses to beard for him. The reason given: he's not respecting the people by blatantly fooling them with his duplicity.

Simply, there should be honesty in the marketplace. That's how the West has come to rule the world. And Art, if it wants to earn money, should not be exempted. Basic justice, simple respect.

The ancient Greek erotic educational system which favors not quite heterosexual actors is viable only in a setting with an ignorant, low-tech population and an entertainment establishment that doesn't respect its market. And in a society where only 1% of the population self-identify as gay, respect has been replaced by pretentious I'm-of-higher-level-than-you wishful thinking. Does anyone even realized the new realities of the more high-tech times? In the Information age where every info is at the click of a mouse, it isn't easy for an aspiring screen idol to go Greek & just keep on pretending as if he was Gielgud or Olivier with double lives. More a charlatan selling snake oil.

In 2002, a British stage actor innocently outed himself & his declaration was preserved online forever:
I knew that even though my part was a straight character, everybody knew me as a gay man and, in my life in London, I never tried to hide it. I knew I was going to have to do interviews with gay magazines, so I thought, ‘Well, I’m going to have to be open’. It’s who I am. And if people don’t like it, then I don’t want their jobs. I’ve never been a very good liar

During the first half of the 2000's, caught up in the ardor of a radicalized gay movement, many British actors publicly outed themselves. The big leading men types promptly disappeared while an unknown stage actor surfaced later on, now poised as a new action star in Hollywood. But surprise, he's now identified as heterosexual complete with a girl friend. I sympathize with him because he was naive enough to be fooled by that useless propaganda of coming out just to validate the fantasies of those who will never be validated anyway. He is now the subject of many attacks from the gay press for turning his back. But I won't join them, I won't name him for the simplest reason I don't care to join the chorus of nailing him by those very people who fooled his simple mind with their propaganda in the first place. I know it doesn't pay to be a sucker to delusions.

Still, this actor may be guilty of false advertising. He could be the British version of Ricardo Fort. I wish him luck but I won't waste my time watching an action movie with him in the lead. Comedy, maybe, but even that I'm not so sure.

As an intelligent consumer, one must be conscious of high quality everytime. You make sure the ingredients of the corned beef are as real as indicated in the label for your physical health. You should be concerned of the quality of your fantasies for your psychic & sexual health.

Whoever would believe for long it is of a "higher level" to swallow one's vomit in the first place?


NEXT PROJECT: We'll have our take on Henry Cavill, Tom Hardy, James McAvoy & the Irish actor Jonathan Rhys-Meyer. Surprisingly only two of them passed our heterosexual criteria & you'll be surprised who didn't quite make the grade. James is definitely a hetero, who is the other one?

DELICIOUS BRITAIN: Ashley Gibson & Matthew Goodwin




Thursday, November 10, 2011

SPENT FORCES: Just Let The Children Play (with our sincerest apologies to Hollywood director Brett Ratner)


Adil Rami, FC Valencia, La Liga

by Dick of All Dicks & Poli Tico

When I read the news, the words of a noted American liberal figure came to mind: dictatorship of political correctness (see it here). Big Brother is here. When former Oscar producer/movie director Brett Ratner allegedly used the word "Faggot" without obvious intention of frontally hurting anybody in particular, he had all the right to express himself. I don't find the word offensive, I still regularly use it instead of "dude" in addressing Greg, my straight boy-loving neighbor. Just the thought of somebody overhearing your casual remarks & creating an artificial scandal actually bothered me more- what, the "politically correct" position now is to live under the glare of CCTV & other recording instruments so the Gestapo squeals can run your life? The cool position now is to act like a child holding your tounge so Mother won't slap you if you muttered something in the corner? Everybody has a right to think low of anybody he thinks is below his standards & he has a right to mutter his opinion as long as he doesn't blurt it at the face of anybody with the frank intention of hurting him. Freedom of expression is greater than the pretension or fantasies of anybody.

What do you think happened why the West skidded recently? Curious, but has it not surprised anybody that the descent came at a time when all the posturing of "political correctness" became vogue in Western political & social circles? If everybody is being considerate of everybody now by arbitrarily censuring the political correctness of each other, why isn't life improving? Why is the West declining instead? Is it part & parcel of being politically correct to have a bleaker future? Or could this misplaced hypersensitivity have "compromised" unnecessarily the priorities & agility of the system itself?

Could the bogus plea of leeway just for reasons of being a minority or other politically hurt party so degraded the underlying mechanism that it couldn't apply anymore its usual stringent standard operating procedures because it had to accommodate many unrealistic, even delusional, political caprices? If it is so affected & compromised, would the system still be as robustly viable in a world slowly but surely slipping from its control?

Writing for this blog unexpectedly gave me more independent insights. You really won't expect the mainstream media to explore beyond a particular ideological line or they won't get their checks. They really can't get away from the now increasingly tired principles & are forced to hew their thinking or they would be pariah to their not as imaginative but equally just as confined cliques. I am increasingly finding myself thinking outside the usual drivel. For a person who can speak 8 languages & read 9, I have access to a whole lot more interpretations of what's going on in the world. Besides, I'm a very international person, I have close friends, mostly belonging to the ruling classes, around the world.

One thing I found out, you can't run the world by presuming everybody should have strong stomachs. How do things appear elsewhere? I asked Poli to distill the views of my friend Donald, a Singaporean-Chinese who was educated in Oxford, England, a classmate of my British friend Ewan. He is an ex-gay, he dabbled in England, but is now married happily with a woman in Singapore, the most productive country in the world despite being a semi-democracy according to Western standards. Here are important excerpts from Poli's notes:

"... The resistance to gays are infinitely greater than against the Blacks. With the Blacks, it was only fear, but against gays are the whole gamut- fear, taste, religion, family, tradition, normality. The fear is infinitely greater with gays because every parent wants his child to become straight, they already know their child won't become Black so the horror of being gay is a real pervasive fear shared in the society. Forget the posturings of the alleged intellectuals in the West regarding this issue, there'll be a new intellectual culture. By historical necessity, they will be marginalized at best...

...The expected backlash within America as they search for reasons why they sunk will zero in on one of the most readily available scapegoats - the very visible gays. They will most likely be driven underground again just like in the past because I don't think the Western Bill of Rights will still be tenable when countries with supposed to be less democratic aspirations have beaten the system. The likely winner, the Chinese model, will be the golden standard. No need for military conquests, the practical forces in the West themselves will do the proper resets just to protect the remaining assets. The American Constitution is outdated anyway, no way would a bunch of old men two-hundred years ago in the past could have imagined present realities...

..Human rights? Not as the West sees them. When they gave a Nobel to Ai Wei Wei, all the so-called democratic countries close to China boycotted the proceedings in Oslo despite protests by human right organizations. Did anything happen to them?

... Spent forces. There's ideological exhaustion everywhere anyway. The Occupy New York, as expected, fizzled. The Arab Spring will ultimately usher in the default Islamic societies of the areas because Western values are simply anathema to the local cultures. Even France is expected to go to financial skids shortly while Alain Juppe, the foreign minister, still have the illusion to bluster that it will withhold funds that it doesn't have to any country not respecting human rights (that nearly killed me laughing). The West simply doesn't have the resources & credibility to impose anymore. To an astute mind, history is inevitable. That's why Plan A of all big Western companies are projecting a market dominated by Asia in the very near future. Even the Western media is fighting for attention now while before, it dominated so Western culture is inevitably losing its appeal. Frankly, it would be a relief from the outdated babbling of the smart-alecks.

... Hollywood is a business. The gay agenda is a trend there for the meantime but as business in the emerging countries gets bigger, they eventually won't allow their impractical fantasies to get in the way. It already knows it has no carte blanche to proselytize. Sharon Stone was forced to keep quiet her criticisms when China threatened to ban her films. China simply banned the songs of Lady Gaga & what do you know, her publicists are coincidentally now drumming up her relationship with a man when she just did a propaganda clip in Paris saying she's more attracted to women. Just imagine the picture ten years from now when the Chinese entertainment market would be bigger than the Western market as a whole. Aside from small sectors in the West largely magnified by the media, nobody really is biting the gay agenda. They just developed their own bubble where they could kid each other. People would rather play Wii than read newspapers anyway... Just let the children play for the meantime...

Btw, you were right, gays are markers of civilization change..."


NOTE
This blog is more a journal of my views at the time it was written. What keeps me going is the thought I'm interpreting history as it develops & it will be good reading when I turn forty a decade from now. Propaganda is not the primary objective or we would have pasted links to the articles everywhere. We post, we forget it. I know I have a select core audience anyway. I don't have to do active propaganda against the current gay agenda, you would be stupid to think it will realize its dreams of equality & no prejudice anyway. It is not realistic, just like Communism, it is a delusion. Not all men who are into men are delusional, they can find happiness & fulfillment without destroying their worlds. The innate defense mechanism of a human being to protect his self-respect is to think of himself as better than another (thus if you can't be beautiful, rich or a best-selling author, you can always delude yourself to have ascendancy just by posturing as "politically correct" so you can look down at anybody who, to you, are unsophisticated). For a straight, not being gay is a ready reason to feel uplifted so the gay one, by default, is, from the start, already subconsciously "slurred". You don't have to be very wise to realize the obvious. Homophobia, like poverty, is forever.




















Monday, November 7, 2011

BECOMING A STRAIGHT MAN Part 2


Massimiliano Rossolini, former Olympic swimmer, Italy

by Dick of All Dicks & Poli Tico

Part 1 here

A reader asked that I write more about the "toilet moments" that I mentioned in the last article (reprinted below). In a previous life, whenever I would spot a really cute, outwardly straight dude, I would imagine all the glorious full-strength testosterone possibilities. But he would catch my eyes & upon seeing me, just won't let go. I would realize the real score then... Gay? Bi? It doesn't matter. Ever since, I only wasted my time on genuine straight men, thus all visions of full-strength testosterone would inevitably become a mere swirl of weak vinegar instead. I never liked weak vinegar & all the bile would rush up to my throat on cue. He would then smile but instead of swooning, I would feel wanting badly to puke in the toilet. One of my famous toilet moments.

You know something is wrong with the world when swallowing your puke during toilet moments is now supposed to be a sign of being modern, avant-garde, intellectual, politically correct, liberal even. So you wonder why things seem to go awry in the West nowadays? The declining sexual standards are but a clue to the general degradation of the stringent standards that propelled the West to its cultural dominance, all to pander to irrelevant politics & ideologies. Ideological loyalty is supposed to guarantee a strong stomach so anyone could tolerate even those things that make him gag. But political ideology is irrelevant in delicious matters like sex. As I wrote before, ideology & politics rely on wishful thinking, but sex doesn't.

A Frenchwoman wrote that the article could have been just as powerful even if the kept boy (Gordon) wasn't mentioned. She worried about the girls in that boy's life later on. Would they be getting a real man as husband? She is convinced I'm sexually converted but would a kept boy immediately return to being a heterosexual after having sex with men even without professional sexual conversion help? What if he enjoyed the sex & "metamorphosed"? Won't he just be toying with girls later on & what if he developed "Marlon Brando Syndrome"? (She was using the terminologies I introduced which are found in the left sidebar). She mentioned previously heterosexual French actors like Daniel Gelin & Alain Delon who participated in orgies in France just to be "in" with the influential homosexual-inclusive artist crowd but ended up "damaged" with a string of broken female relationships later on, Gelin even attempting suicide at one point. The "Marlon Brando Syndrome" is real, she said (Real worries of a woman there).

Valid concerns. My sexual conversion was not prodded by my fear of being ostracized as gay. I never had the slightest intention to come out as gay, I never had the desire to socialize with outed gays anyway. What I do in my bedroom is my own business. My decision to finally have myself sexually converted was more out of concern for the straight boys I had sex with. I know I could never stomach sex with gays, but there came a point I realized I wouldn't want to risk anyone anymore either. When we did our private semi-scientific study among the guys we had sex with which made it clear that metamorphic sexuality is possible (see here), I limited myself to oral sex wishfully hoping that that would inflict less negative side-effects on the straight guys who initially just did it in exchange for material benefits. But even that I've gladly done away with later to seek a sexual rebirth instead. I just felt it was the right thing to do. I'm just glad it turned out I was really right in the end.

Sophie, the Frenchwoman, sent her edited take on the article, minus the part of the kept boy. I decided to share it. Judge for yourself.

BEING A STRAIGHT MAN (The Sanitized Version)
DEFINITIONS:
1. Benign Gay- Gay whose homosexual tendencies are still amenable to treatment
2. Malignant Gay- incurable gay
3. A-Lister Gay- a gay man who prefers to have sex with predominantly heterosexual males
3. B-Lister Gay- an outed gay man who can stomach having sex with another outed gay man
5. Malignant B-Lister Gay- incurable outed gay who can stomach sex with other outed gays

It turned out, the secret weapon in becoming heterosexual are the gays themselves.

Living in LA is good for an ex-gay sexual convert, especially if you were exclusively into straight men before, because there are so many gays loitering around, especially if you live around the Hollywood area. That kills the appetite for men because the contaminated view tends to give you this lingering suspicion everybody not obvious could be a closet case so you won't really bother to exert extra effort to even take a second look to check a particularly cute guy because you loathe to waste your time & energy just in case he turns out to be the fake variety. As I've written before, the ambiance is very important to me, gay tones has always destroyed the sexual mood, & just passing thru WeHo in a busy hour immediately annihilated all thoughts of sex. Even when I was still active with all-men sex, whenever I was particularly horny but I had to be busy with some work, I just would drive by the old "Vaseline Alley" to make myself nauseous & even just a gust of the air would make me lose all cravings for sex instantly. Actually, I never had a completed sex with men in LA. There were only two times I went to bed, both with two actor wannabes (who later became well-known ladies' men), but I lost my erection right in the foreplay each time because they both sounded faggy when they started breathing heavily. I am very particular with sounds & the slightest suspicion stops me at my tracks. In both cases, I begged off & left.

The downside of still writing about my previous gay life is that it's turning out to be an aggravation- instead of just drinking espresso when I'm writing a post just like before, now I have to drink stronger stuff, beer mostly, just to wash down the bad taste formed in my mouth as I dredged best dormant memories for my articles. At certain points with particular triggers, it is not unlike the sudden surge of nausea before whenever I discovered that the cute, seemingly straight guy I was eyeing would turn out to be gay or bi. I called them 'toilet moments' because I always felt then wanting to run to the toilet to puke. Those were forgotten horrors better buried in the past. The price I have to pay for this blog. The only consolation is the reassurance I'm coasting along in my new sex life. No relapse at all so far. A true heterosexual convert, that's me.

So how does being a sexual convert feel like? Do I still feel sexual attraction to straight guys just like before? Strangely, the revulsion I felt before to a gay flirting with me has been transformed into a generalized reaction formation. Ever since, I always felt a certain nausea seeing a naked gay man, & since they were always clogging my gym's locker room & were always eyeing me, there came a point I became nauseated just entering the locker room that I had to build my own home gym. Same conditioning mechanism is at work now: my revulsion to thoughts of sex with gays has transferred to all thoughts of sex with all men. The difference is I'm not revolted seeing a naked straight man. I can stay now in a sauna joking naked with my straight friends without thinking of sex but even astray memories of my previous sexual adventures with men could revive the nausea. It appears the thoughts of a naked B-lister gay male or a gay male wanting to have sex are the key negative triggers because I don't feel the revulsion with my A-lister close friends who were all into straight guys only (most of them would turn out to be benign & most are already converted anyway). The converted ones told me it's mostly the same mechanism at work with them. So you see, our "politically incorrect", discriminatory vomit reflexes play a great part in our sexual rebirths.

So what's the best way to become an ex-gay? Developing a low level of nausea is a must. A strong stomach is definitely contraindicated.When you start feeling nauseated looking at a particular trying-hard apparition, you're on your way. That nausea could be harnessed positively. Self-hatred among gays, especially the benign ones, could be rechanneled to hatred to sex with other gays so a sexual response could be recalibrated to the desired sexual state. Gays naturally repel each other, & that should be reinforced instead of being politically manipulated the other way around, as it is being done now. The benign ones could still benefit & should be protected. I consider the malignant B-lister gays as terminal cases, de-facto collateral damage of evolution, & the practical thing to do is write them off, not allowed a propaganda pulpit instead & hold everybody as moral & political hostages, with the benign A-lister or B-lister gays as the final victims. The downside of the current gay politics is it's mostly malignant B-lister gay-led. It aims to remove an important avenue of escape & seeks to doom everybody into its brand of deluded existence. Malignant tumors are normally irradiated, even excised, rather than allowed to fester & eat up the organism. Political malignancies shouldn't be allowed to eat up the benign cases that could still be saved (saving the 9% over the 1% in British terms).

I have this theory that most of the so-called homophobic hate crimes are between homosexuals themselves. I have punched more than a hundred gays, Greg, who is still active in all-male sex, claims to slap one at least once a week. All my like-minded friends have similar track records. What happens is that most gays nowadays, mindful of the prohibitive economics involved with straight guys, have no recourse but to do it cheaply & hit on what they suspect as other gays. Unfortunately, they have this crazy idea that all gays are game with other gays & they could get too pushy not knowing they're after an A-lister. It usually occurred to me when I would start eyeing what I thought was a straight guy, but who would turn out later to be gay or bi after all. I definitely would back away but just like all the rest, invariably upon seeing my face, they just wouldn't want to let go of the chance so they would pursue me in my getaway even up to the parking lot where I would be forced to use my black-belt on them. My Italian friend Tomasso from Florence related an incident. One time in Rome, he was in a urinal in a bar when a muscular fellow stood beside him then just looked at his penis. But before he could protest, an effeminate gay suddenly materialized on the other side, who probably feared the other one would get Tomasso first, so he immediately tried to grab my friend's exposed organ. Tomasso punched him right away, then made his getaway & rejoined his straight kept boy then, Simone, inside the bar. Some minutes later, there was a commotion outside. On the other side of the street, the effeminate gay from the urinal was lying down with a bloodied face on the sidewalk, crying, while the muscular guy from the urinal was running away as fast as he could from the scene. When they transferred to another bar, Tomasso was surprised to see the muscular man drinking in the counter. Probably fearing my friend would report him, he immediately approached & explained the effeminate gay won't pay after he agreed to be fellated in a stall. The former ran outside instead so he just mauled him when they caught up. Tomasso thought then the fem probably didn't really expect to pay because he was just cruising another gay. The next morning, he opened the TV while eating his breakfast & the newscaster had this grave face reporting on another "detestable case of homophobia"- allegedly, an innocent gay man was just walking home when he was suddenly attacked "with extreme hatred" by a gang of youths.

Tomasso found it so surreal watching the self-righteous disdain on the clueless anchorman's face that he laughed uncontrollably he almost choked on the panini. He was still laughing just as hard when he related the incident to me six months later when I visited him in Florence. Laughing was cathartic to Tomasso. That incident turned out to be an epiphany. You're supposed to pity somebody in that story? Wait until you are a constant victim of harassment in a urinal yourself. More important thing, Tomasso saw a vision- a less surreal existence. At that time, I was already talking of my sexual conversion but not really trying to convince anybody to follow. But one-upmanship is ingrained in boys even in matters of sexuality. Four moths later, Tomasso called up to tell me he already has a girlfriend. Same mechanism: recycle his revulsion to the two gays in the urinal, to all gays for that matter, & later, transposed it to all guys as a matter of course. Between us, I have to admit he has the better-looking girlfriend. But we love them both.

There was never any emotional component to my relationships with men. Purely physical. I consider somebody who has been "in love" before with a man as bisexual even if he has all the right to self-identify later as heterosexual. But the label is only for my benefit so I would know if I should stay away from being caught naked in a sauna with him. The reason I've punched more than a hundred gays is really because of one fact: a naked really good-looking guy will always draw out the real sexuality of a repressed case (before questioning that, please look at the mirror first). Somebody I suspected ALWAYS made a pass. So labels are important to the prospective victim. There was this author who wrote in his bio claiming that he's straight though he fell in love with another boy when he was young but there's nothing wrong with homosexual love because it is love. Lol, he would've made more sense if he just wrote he was bisexual because no heterosexual man ever falls in love with another man. I wouldn't be caught naked with him in a spa even if his wife is with him.

It used to irk me to think I have to get out of town to get the right mood to enjoy men but I'm now discovering the benefits. The dampening energy nearby fortifies my feelings of heterosexuality. So you want to become straight? Contrary to malignant B-lister gay politics, sexual repulsion to other gays is a necessary step. It is the required first step. Go on from there. A benign case need not live in delusion forever.



















Saturday, November 5, 2011

BECOMING A STRAIGHT MAN


Victor Valdes, FC Barcelona, La Liga

by Dick of All Dicks & Poli Tico

I was just in Paris & Yves told me my blog would be nice-reading ten years from now because it is actually documenting a slipping era that everyone is "wishfulling denying". But I will continue with my SWATTED series next time, there are other interesting topics in what I call "Non-delusional Delicious Sexuality". Actually, one could even benefit men who are into men, especially the benign ones.

It turned out, the secret weapon in becoming heterosexual are the gays themselves.

Living in LA is good for an ex-gay sexual convert, especially if you were exclusively into straight men before, because there are so many gays loitering around, especially if you live around the Hollywood area. That kills the appetite for men because the contaminated view tends to give you this lingering suspicion everybody not obvious could be a closet case so you won't really bother to exert extra effort to even take a second look to check a particularly cute guy because you loathe to waste your time & energy just in case he turns out to be the fake variety. As I've written before, the ambiance is very important to me, gay tones have always destroyed the sexual mood, & just passing thru WeHo in a busy hour immediately annihilated all thoughts of sex. Even when I was still active with all-men sex, whenever I was particularly horny but I had to be busy with some work, I just would drive by the old "Vaseline Alley" to make myself nauseous & even just a gust of the air would make me lose all cravings for sex instantly. Actually, I never had a completed sex with men in LA. There were only two times I went to bed, both with two actor wannabes (who later became well-known ladies' men), but I lost my erection right in the foreplay each time because they both sounded faggy when they started breathing heavily. I am very particular with sounds & the slightest suspicion stops me at my tracks. In both cases, I begged off & left. I had a straight kept boy, a former boyfriend of my former secretary Slu, Gordon from OC, but we had to hie off to the desert to get the right mood. Well, Gordon must be the luckiest kept boy because I just did fellatio on him 3 times in the 3 years I maintained him (I had male sex mostly in my international manhunts), but we must have had threesomes with a hundred girls. He was my main supplier of girls for the female sensitization part of my sexual conversion. I consider him now a younger best friend & converted him into a business partner recently. We go out of town sometimes foursome with our respective girlfriends.

The downside of still writing about my previous gay life is that it's turning out to be an aggravation- instead of just drinking espresso when I'm writing a post just like before, now I have to drink stronger stuff, beer mostly, just to wash down the bad taste formed in my mouth as I dredged best dormant memories for my articles. At certain points with particular triggers, it is not unlike the sudden surge of nausea before whenever I discovered that the cute, seemingly straight guy I was eyeing would turn out to be gay or bi. I called them 'toilet moments' because I always felt then wanting to run to the toilet to puke. Those were forgotten horrors better buried in the past. The price I have to pay for this blog. The only consolation is the reassurance I'm coasting along in my new sex life. No relapse at all so far. A true heterosexual convert, that's me.

So how does being a sexual convert feel like? Do I still feel sexual attraction to straight guys just like before? Strangely, the revulsion I felt before to a gay flirting with me has been transformed into a generalized reaction formation. Ever since, I always felt a certain nausea seeing a naked gay man, & since they were always clogging my gym's locker room & were always eyeing me, there came a point I became nauseated just entering the locker room that I had to build my own home gym. Same conditioning mechanism is at work now: my revulsion to thoughts of sex with gays has transferred to all thoughts of sex with all men. The difference is I'm not revolted seeing a naked straight man. I can stay now in a sauna joking naked with my straight friends without thinking of sex but even astray memories of my previous sexual adventures with men could revive the nausea. It appears the thoughts of a naked B-lister gay male or a gay male wanting to have sex are the key negative triggers because I don't feel the revulsion with my A-lister close friends who were all into straight guys only (most of them would turn out to be benign & most are already converted anyway). The converted ones told me it's mostly the same mechanism at work with them. So you see, our "politically incorrect", discriminatory vomit reflexes play a great part in our sexual rebirths.

So what's the best way to become an ex-gay? Developing a low level of nausea is a must. A strong stomach is definitely contraindicated.When you start feeling nauseated looking at a particular trying-hard apparition, you're on your way. That nausea could be harnessed positively. Self-hatred among gays, especially the benign ones, could be rechanneled to hatred to sex with other gays so a sexual response could be recalibrated to the desired sexual state. Gays naturally repel each other, & that should be reinforced instead of being politically manipulated the other way around, as it is being done now. The benign ones could still benefit & should be protected. I consider the malignant B-lister gays as terminal cases, de-facto collateral damage of evolution, & the practical thing to do is write them off, not allowed a propaganda pulpit instead & hold everybody as moral & political hostages, with the benign A-lister or B-lister gays as the final victims. The downside of the current gay politics is it's mostly malignant B-lister gay-led. It aims to remove an important avenue of escape & seeks to doom everybody into its brand of deluded existence. Malignant tumors are normally irradiated, even excised, rather than allowed to fester & eat up the organism. Political malignancies shouldn't be allowed to eat up the benign cases that could still be saved (saving the 9% over the 1% in British terms).

I have this theory that most of the so-called homophobic hate crimes are between homosexuals themselves. I have punched more than a hundred gays, Greg, who is still active in all-male sex, claims to slap one at least once a week. All my like-minded friends have similar track records. What happens is that most gays nowadays, mindful of the prohibitive economics involved with straight guys, have no recourse but to do it cheaply & hit on what they suspect as other gays. Unfortunately, they have this crazy idea that all gays are game with other gays & they could get too pushy not knowing they're after an A-lister. It usually occurred to me when I would start eyeing what I thought was a straight guy, but who would turn out later to be gay or bi after all. I definitely would back away but just like all the rest, invariably upon seeing my face, they just wouldn't want to let go of the chance so they would pursue me in my getaway even up to the parking lot where I would be forced to use my black-belt on them. My Italian friend Tomasso from Florence related an incident. One time in Rome, he was in a urinal in a bar when a muscular fellow stood beside him then just looked at his penis. But before he could protest, an effeminate gay suddenly materialized on the other side, who probably feared the other one would get Tomasso first, so he immediately tried to grab my friend's exposed organ. Tomasso punched him right away, then made his getaway & rejoined his straight kept boy then, Simone, inside the bar. Some minutes later, there was a commotion outside. On the other side of the street, the effeminate gay from the urinal was lying down with a bloodied face on the sidewalk, crying, while the muscular guy from the urinal was running away as fast as he could from the scene. When they transferred to another bar, Tomasso was surprised to see the muscular man drinking in the counter. Probably fearing my friend would report him, he immediately approached & explained the effeminate gay won't pay after he agreed to be fellated in a stall. The former ran outside instead so he just mauled him when they caught up. Tomasso thought then the fem probably didn't really expect to pay because he was just cruising another gay. The next morning, he opened the TV while eating his breakfast & the newscaster had this grave face reporting on another "detestable case of homophobia"- allegedly, an innocent gay man was just walking home when he was suddenly attacked "with extreme hatred" by a gang of youths.

Tomasso found it so surreal watching the self-righteous disdain on the clueless anchorman's face that he laughed uncontrollably he almost choked on the panini. He was still laughing just as hard when he related the incident to me six months later when I visited him in Florence. Laughing was cathartic to Tomasso. That incident turned out to be an epiphany. You're supposed to pity somebody in that story? Wait until you are a constant victim of harassment in a urinal yourself. More important thing, Tomasso saw a vision- a less surreal existence. At that time, I was already talking of my sexual conversion but not really trying to convince anybody to follow. But one-upmanship is ingrained in boys even in matters of sexuality. Four moths later, Tomasso called up to tell me he already has a girlfriend. Same mechanism: recycle his revulsion to the two gays in the urinal, to all gays for that matter, & later, transposed it to all guys as a matter of course. Between us, I have to admit he has the better-looking girlfriend. But we love them both.

There was never any emotional component to my relationships with men. Purely physical. I consider somebody who has been "in love" before with a man as bisexual even if he has all the right to self-identify later as heterosexual. But the label is only for my benefit so I would know if I should stay away from being caught naked in a sauna with him. The reason I've punched more than a hundred gays is really because of one fact: a naked really good-looking guy will always draw out the real sexuality of a repressed case (before questioning that, please look at the mirror first). Somebody I suspected ALWAYS made a pass. So labels are important to the prospective victim. There was this author who wrote in his bio claiming that he's straight though he fell in love with another boy when he was young but there's nothing wrong with homosexual love because it is love. Lol, he would've made more sense if he just wrote he was bisexual because no heterosexual man ever falls in love with another man. I wouldn't be caught naked with him in a spa even if his wife is with him.

It used to irk me to think I have to get out of town to get the right mood to enjoy men but I'm now discovering the benefits. The dampening energy nearby fortifies my feelings of heterosexuality. So you want to become straight? Contrary to malignant B-lister gay politics, sexual repulsion to other gays is a necessary step. It is the required first step. Go on from there. A benign case need not live in delusion forever.

NOTE
I received an email from a boy from Las Vegas, Nick, who wrote I should write the music I'm listening to because he missed the days when I would put music videos (we allegedly have the same taste): when I wrote this post, I was listening to two albums, Noel Gallagher's High Flying Birds & Ryan Adams' Ashes & Fire. I'm about to play Coldplay's album, Mylo Xyloto, Deus' Keep You Close & The Kooks' Junk of the Heart. Btw, the singer of the latter, Luke Pritchard, was my last male singer crush before my sexual conversion. I just came from Europe, that accounts for the mostly European acts today, except for Ryan, of course, who is the only short singer I could tolerate. No, I don't listen to gay singers, it would feel like a malignant B-lister gay man has intruded into my earphones. There are so many singers & songs anyway, I have 200 GB in my hard drive. I deleted all my REM songs when the lead singer came out. Even those I just suspect even if they show girls, I avoid (watch their gay advocacy- the gay market is miniscule so I find no reason for risking the straight-loving segment which includes wealthy gays who actually buy, so a closet singer is really just fighting for himself). No need to destroy the mood. Music is supposed to be a sensual feast, not a religious occasion to pretend pity.

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